Emocomes

Created at 28th October 2012
We come from the best high school choir.
We are fifteen and that stays in our memories.
We emo and we happy.
This is us, BEMOFF.
Best Emo Friends Forever :D

Melody; Fude; Smile; Huixian; ♛
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"If we live our life in fear,
we find our way through music,
Just to be born as we before. And the media is below :D Enjoy :)"

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Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Sometimes,
It's just hard to have a life or something like that.

I just finished my piano class.
I know I'm in diploma right now.
And next year I have two exams,
one is Yamaha Performance,
which is like prepare 4 songs,
2 variations, 1 motif,
for me,
there is still a standard right there,
but now I think I can't chase up.
And another exam is Grade 8 theory exam,
which I totally so damn don't know how to do.

There is a lot of people, I mean my friends,
thought I was so pro,
but I'm not.
I don't feel the hardworking of me.
I never give hard work on anything.
Now my piano,
it just sucks.
I hardly play a song fully.
I got bored and then I stop.
Don't even think that I can compose a song now.

Usually I always sing a melody out,
especially when I'm sad.
But now,
I guess being loved by someone and love someone change our life.
I can't sad because I don't want to let someone who loves me worried about me,
but without my emotions,
I don't think, I feel myself anymore.

These days,
I keep digging all my old songs.
I mean like,
I really want to know who I use to be,
but I just can't find it.
I feel like I'm missing,
but,
I have what I always wanted.

I don't know.
I don't know what to do.
Seeing my music getting so weak,
and my studies getting so much harder,
violin, singing, even some posing, I guess,
I mean,
People around me just give me the pressure,
And actually I can do it,
it's just I don't want to be hardworking.
I guess I have no choice.

I know there's a lot of people out there want to help me,
but it's just like,
I still need to face it by myself.
And hard working.
You know,
At first I thought music is where I'm heading to,
but now,
I'm a bit lost.
I don't hate music,
but maybe my love just lost.

I'm so sad to hear about me saying that way,
I mean is like saying I'm not Melody anymore.
That's the worst part ever happened to a musician.
No more inspiration, no more creativity,
And lost in a maze where you have no idea where you are.

It's been so long my tears wanted to fall off,
but there's just no time or even the pressure push it off,
It's like I need to be perfect because I was trained to be perfect already,
I need to show out what I can,
but,
I don't know what I learn anymore.

I don't have emotions,
My music is lack of expression,
None of them have a story.
Maybe, is that someone.
But I don't blame that someone,
cause,
I know that someone also loves music,
And why I just get lesser to music?

I'm confused.
My mom is still waiting for another operation,
My dad, he's old, and I'm still spending the money, 
Retire age is getting soon.
I mean is like,
once I'm in college,
I already need to write songs to earn the money already.

I felt pressure.
I don't have the confidence to do anything anymore.
I'm scared, timid,
I just don't know what else to do.

My friends,
they all still have a long way,
they can do their studies,
but, thinking that the time is short,
I just have another 4 to 5 years.
I don't know what should I give up now,
I know it's obvious that someone,
but I don't want to,
but I don't want to be a failure either.

LIFE'S HARD.

What can I say?

It's just a sad world even though hearts crying for happiness,
but we still stay under the shadows.

xoxos. Melody.